Into the Cracks of Broken Hearts by Vadim Makoyed

Through the Cracks of Broken Hearts


When Your Heart Is Groaning

It’s when your hands are lonely
And your heart is groaning.
When the moon is stopping
And the stars are falling.

It’s when we are apart,
And the days can’t start.
When I can feel your heart
And the dark gets bright.

I wrote this poem thinking about my future wife, Natalie, while we were still half of the world apart. This is how it felt without her.

You Will Be Broken

Brokenness is inevitable. God wants His people to be perfect. This means that our lives must be built on a right foundation, which also means that the old one must be teared down first. God wants His people to walk in humbleness and this is when He breaks us.

There are only two breaking forces: God and sin. If God will break you, you will fall into His arms. He will put you back together with the weakest sides made strongest. 2 Samuel 24:14 David said to Gad, “I am in deep distress. Let us fall into the hands of the Lord, for his mercy is great; but do not let me fall into human hands.” If your sin will break you, who will pick up the pieces? God breaks to make us stronger, just like potters break the vessels to make them strong.

Joseph from the Bible is a great example. The more God showed Joseph about his destiny, the further he was taken away from it; hate, betrayal, slavery, imprisonment. As it turned out later, going further was coming closer. Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. It is the same in our lives. The more broken you are, the more whole you are. The weaker you are, the stronger you are. 2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” If you think you are strong and can do anything, you must realize that you are nothing without Him but you are everything in Him.  1 Peter 1:24 For, “All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall.”

You have a great destiny from God. He wants you to be successful until the end. Some people have fallen because of their gifts and destinies given to them by God. But if you will walk in humbleness lead to by brokenness, you will always know that your every breath, success, gift, accomplishment is a pure work of God and zero of you. He must take ALL the glory. Jesus told his disciples about what they ought to think of themselves Luke 17:10 So you also, when you have done everything you were told to do, should say, ‘We are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty.’”

When you feel like your life breaks up, all you need to do is make sure that there is no sin in your heart and you have a good relationship with God. Then, relax and enjoy the journey. God is Almighty. He loves you so much. He will lead you through. Trust Him and you will become unbreakable.


“I’M ALIVE!” – screaming to myself.
“I’M ALIVE!” – lying to myself.
Disgrace attaches to my name
And worms are eating on my fame.

Forget! Forget the day
When healing sunshine had its way
Into the cracks of broken hearts,
Into the depths of thrust-through arms.

You’re holy, just the way You are,
But my sins led me astray too far.

Don’t Let My Heart Rot

Your word is my hope
That keeps me believing.
On the bloody, sharp slope
It keeps me from slipping.

Your word is a thread.
And my life still hangs.
And hope isn’t dead.
I’ve ripped out all doubts’ fangs.

Don’t let my heart rot.
Don’t let me let go.
Your love is a joy.
You’re what I live for.

There’s Got To Be More

There’s got to be more of You.
I am miserably unsatisfied.
There’s got to be more than a prayer,
More than a song,
More than a Sunday service.
There’s got to be more of You.

And if I worship, then let Your presence come down.
And if I preach, then let You Spirit speak.
And if I pray,then let the gates of hell shake.
There must be more of You.