This Great Fire

Everything was making sense.
Everything was simply right.
I thought, “Forever this will last!”
But didn’t know it wasn’t God.

Is this the end?
Is this my edge?
I know its not.
Just hear me out.

Happy end awaits us all,
If not I rather end it now.

Who put me down here,
In this dark, unknown place?
Maybe I should be erased.
Sounds like enemy makes much more sense,
Then the truth I knew the best.

We all face horror.
Time after time… we all do.
But oh, my great fire,
Never did I think it’ll be through you.

I Wish You’d Last With Me Forever

One day I just got really tired of people living a lie. Especially as a Christian and being deeply involved into youth ministry, preaching, counseling, etc. I would find people living a double life.

They pretend like they know and are worshipers of God yet still play with sin and devil at the same time. They would come to me for help but in a while call me a retard.

I don’t mind names, but the fact that they don’t want to change even when they hear the truth spoken from the lips of God disturbed me even greater. By expressing my emotions on paper, here’s how it turned out:

You are still sleeping with your lies
In cold embrace of wicked face
Comfort’s grace ran from your ways.

Be The Resistance!

Jesus taught to love our enemies, yet He spoke of the one that can never be loved. Otherwise, he should be hated, fought, and destroyed. This is our enemy – Satan/devil/sin/flesh.

Psa 139:21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee? I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

Just like king David hated God’s enemies in physical world, we should be filled with the same hatred for His enemies in a spiritual world. This is the only way a Christ follower can be sure that he will never desert his Savior. If only all Christians would have the same feelings for sin, like David had it for God’s enemies, we would truly be victorious and undefeated. We would be the real church of Christ that gates of hell could never prevail.

Hatred for our flesh is love for our God. Just like no one can serve two Gods at the same time. Just like no one can walk two roads at the same time, so it is with love – a man cannot love God and live by flesh at the same time. It’s a day to slam our fists on the table and make right demand, it is time to proclaim, “No longer will we be kissing the cold lips of idols!”

Culprit and Forgiver

Isn’t it You I cursed?
Spit my hate into Your face.
Your excruciating suffers
Were my delightful suppers.
I laughed,
Pretended to be so tough.
Disobedient son,
Unfaithful believer.
I was Your killer.

Oh, what a grace, Forgiver!

My desperation lead into starvation
And that’s when You found me.

Became my salvation,
So I could forever be.
Brought me redemption
As I fell on my knees.

And now I want to share Your pain,
Eventhough I’m not a saint,
But I love You, I love You, I love You!

My Love, for You I paint
Beautiful scenes of tomorrow.
Together we oust away sorrows.
I’m fine with this road being narrow.

My past is cut and burned.
Not by gold nor silver,
My redemption by Your blood was earned.
By Your blood, Forgiver!

Pray For Me

Pray for me,
For I have lost my ways.
Please, pray for me,
I really miss bright days.

Strength has left me,
My soul hates me.
In what I trusted
Is what I fear.

I’ll be so grateful,
Just pray for me.
I cannot be.

There’s Been An Invasion

So aggressive, so unexpected,
These fiends rushed in without a knock.
Threw me out, cut my heart.
Tore me all apart.

These creatures watched me drown,
But I never let them celebrate my defeat.
Hungry, they wanted me to fall,
But I could not, I chose to fight.

Worms of doubts and impatience
Were eating me away,
The sun in that desert
Reminded me of hell.
Isolation, suffocation -
I didn’t want to be their friend,
Oh, how they found out my ways.

Whispers Of The Serpent

Whispers, whispers, they whisper
Thinking I do not hear,
But these noises filled my head,
Rumors of the dead.

He’s calling, calling me home.
But its not my home, it’s not my rest.
This serpent, deceitful serpent,
I’ve seen him act unclean.

Oh, serpent, father of all lies,
Do you still believe that I can be
anything but me?
You’re wrong, you’ll see!

I’m armed with strenght for battle
And take no time to settle.
You are the one to die,
Beneath my feet to lie.

To burn alive, to thirst for life
And see no light, but endless night.
To suffocate in hopeless hate.
Never will you be spared.

When last breath left your soul
You looked into my eyes in fear,
But I dropped for you no tear.

We both waited for this day.
You knew yourself, but were afraid to say.
Afraid to admit that this is it…

This is it.

In Coma

I’m on this road and running…
The pressure’s high and rising…
I want a break…
But it could mean – the end…

Did I take this road too soon? I just want to chill at times… Too late to wonder, I guess… Cause I’m there and running…

It’s just this weird feeling…
It’s these unexpected guests…
The maniacs, I guess…
It’s like hurricanes against my being…
It’s such a weird feeling…

These waves crush down the smiles… They try to sweep away the peace… It’s so at every turn I make… It’s so at every height I try to take…

I See the World Through Blurry Eyes

I see the world through blurry eyes.
Like a blind-man I hold on to You,
Careless about everything but skies.
I know someday they’ll make me new.

This is Disgrace to God’s Grace

God was stretching arms to me.
I was throwing rocks at Him.
Such a response to God’s grace…
Such a disgrace!

Let us value and respect what God has given us: a family, friends, church, salvation, grace, love, healing, future, wisdom, knowledge, wife, husband, kids, money, prosperity, etc.